TWiFAMPIRE

Im a Big TWILIGHT addict...

The problem is This thing makes love look beautiful..although it is not... But still i like to live in dat place!

I dream...I desire...I dun achieve...!!

hey bloggers how u doin..??

Sittin in my car waiting for someone to come...! Thout of writin what am i feelin rite nw...! Its like somtimes i feel like writin dis blog as life of sirjan sodhi or or or confessions of a silly girl...or even maybe...confessions of an emotional fool...what say??
Its funny thinkin bout things u knw wont happn...but anyways...
So valentines is coming... N i think mine wont b really happy one..! So thinkin of new ways to sulk or cry or scream...anyways..
Waitin for someone is tuff job...i never let anyone wait for me...neither do i like waitin...but dats ok..

So thinking y i wrote i dream i desire i dun achieve...its not tuff to say this...its easy...dats wht i am exactly thinkin...or feelin...i dream to b with him...i desire to b wth him..but i wont achieve it mayb...coz mayb we arent meant for each other?? This is exactly y i am here...waitin for him to come n clear it up.. I love u...!
I'd alwys wish d best for u...u find leavin me d best thing ok.. Its ur wish my dear...

Life is really very hard...i thout my life is complete to b true yes my life was...yes sometimes ups n downs r there but dats ok..im ok wth dat too..but u avoidin me or not talkin to me...is impossible to take In... Im very sad...
Here in India...in north region it has a very very amazingly nice weather...very beautiful...but i dunno if i'd like to say this again...

Love u pple...take care...n keep bloggin!!

ThinkiNg..!!!

what should aperson do when he/she has sumthin tht made thier lives full and all of a sudden it disappearz?????

I am sad...But why i ask myself...i have a reason...that if u loved me...n then suddenly u go? y would u go? What is the need for this..?? I don't understand?
Dont i love u enuf?
Its u who never wanted to love me enuf..!!!
WHY??? why me..??!!
God pple say hope n everything will get fine soon...when???
3weeks now..!!! N he doesnt want to talk? neither does hez tellin me if he ever wants to talk to me again?
my parents knw... What if sumday they ask me anythin? no...why does he have to bother?
Coz its not his problem...
OUCH

MAybe what he says is right there is no love...I TRUST U MY LOVE THERE IS NUTHING as LOVE..!!!

Trust me....I wont ever love anyone again...coz its just impossible...yeah i dun say i wont fall in love again but now...if sum1 wants to make me fall in love they have to work hard...pretty hard...

They have to make me feel what i feel...even him...
If he says he will be fine in sometime...Then also he will have to make me...Feel the love wich he wants to feel from me...I wont...!!!

I'll be a stone from now on..
But pple nly u knw...
I'd BE always the same from inside..!!!

Im just TIRED...EXHAUSTED....

FUCk..!!!

Love ya all...
take care bloggers!!!

Feel Like this All the time..!!!Sometyms songs can say exactly wht u want to.!

But somewhere in a private place...She packs her bags for outer space..
N now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come and she'll say to him...
I would fly to the moon and back if u'll be my baby..
Got a ticket for a world where we belong..So wud u be my baby?

She cant remember a time when she felt needed..!
If love was red then she was colour blind..!!!

This is exactly what i am feeling right now..!!! Hmmmppfff

Today is the day..!!!

Im so so so fucked up..!! dunno what to do or what to feell..??? i don't know anything...although i feel pain..I WISH I CUD be NUMB...

A Few Quotes Frm FEW movies i LOVE..!!!

Carol: Sitting there, alone in a foreign country, far from my job and everyone I know, a feeling came over me. It was like remembering something I'd never known before or had always been waiting for, but I didn't know what. Maybe it was something I'd forgotten or something I've been missing all my life. All I can say is that I felt, at the same time, joy and sadness. But not too much sadness, because I felt alive. Yes, alive. That was the moment I fell in love with Paris. And I felt Paris fall in love with me.



-FROM PARIS JE T' AIME-..!!!Gosh the scene is so pretty....n this movie make me fall in love with PARIS even mre..!!!Watch it once atleast..!!! plz....



The Husband: In pretending to be a man in love, he became a man in love.

-FROM PARIS JE T' AIME-..!!!



AMAZING MOVIE!!!!



Christopher Gardner: You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it.



-FROM THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS-..!!!AmaZin MOvie...n tHIS IS THE QUOTE I WILL LIVE BY N AM LIVIN WITH IT...Coz I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND IT...Coz all this tym pple told me i cnt live my dream..so,i will live it...n to hell wth them who thnk i cnt..!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR....!!!

hey hey hey bloggers.....

Long tym no see Han..!!!

So how is everyone???

Ummm......Been busy in loads of things...like exams...n life...and not to forget Mumbai blasts...!!
Oh God...can u believe that was so awful....People died on spots...n without any reason they were killed...their family members left on there own..It was so Sad...

Even i cried while looking at news on TV....
n then discussed the issue with my frend Nidhi....Its just i think we click together on any of these matters...like i can discuss with her n she explains me evrything very clearly....so it feels good..
Instead of being sad we were angry...frustrated...What to they think...if they can Do this n then we will sit quiety....
THOSE PEOPLE ARE LOOSERS WHO THINK LIKE THIS.....WE INDIANS ARE UNITED.!!!
NOTHING CAN BREAK US.....!!!!

n then can my examz....Oh gosh.....Can't tell u wasnt prepared for this..!!!But together with friends we did it...lolz...ya now i am done with my examz...although this year, the papers were a bit tough!!!
So....hmmmm im in my final semester...n then my grad. will be over...Phew...4 long years will be over..!!!
although its completely fyn with me....but ya i would miss BUNKING the lectures...n ya dats all i'll miss bout my kolg life...coz rest of it has been hell..!!!

hmmmm...after this im thinking either going to London for furthur studies...or if my dad dosn't allow then will go to paris for a nice trip n holiday...coz now i cant wait ne more..!!!

Lets c wht the future holds....
n NEW YEAR!!!!
hmmmm.......as usual 4 years n this tym also i cudnt celebrate it...coz had an exam on 1st jan!!!ha ha ha....stupid though....!!
n now im having holidays..n tryin to relax in this messed up house...coz its renovating....
n im prayin hardddddd that this new year brings nice things because 2008 has been one heck of a year...seen loads of downs n downs only...!!! n i am sad for it till now..!!!

hmmmm.....rite now this is wht i have in mind....
dun worry...loads to come in future....
n plz u all also pray that i go to paris....i so wanna go there..!!!

take care...love ya all...!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..!!!!

RAMLAL dedicated To 'N'

Heya bloggers...

Hw r u alll?????here i am...d one dat u love...lolz song cme to my mind...sooo...
ya im still bugged up n dats y i rite blog so dat i can feel much better...
Ya it HURTS me to say my frends r not mine ne mre...although they act fyn wth me..but the actual thing is what i knw rite..!!!
Sooooo bugged up im writin about RAMLAL...a Dog wo died coz of Itching disease...lolz...those of you who do not understand no problems...coz its dedicated to a friend of mine "N"....n the dog was a stray dog who lived nea her home..!!!So we didnt do ne harm to dog also...
Do u remember yar hw he used to bark all day long..!!lolz...n you always said RAMLAL i love u...ha ha ha ha
i knw yaara those were the days...we had loads of things to talk about,ya now we dun but still we make up...coz i knw u are alwyas there for me..!!
now back to RAMLAL...ah what a dog he was..!!
He did Itchin all the dayn kept barking to strangers..!!What a lyf he had...He was Brave Indeed.!!Survied the World's Ignorance n lived Happily..!!
Awwww....i cnt think of nethin else..!!!
But hey WE MISS U RAMLAL.!!!
n to hell with evrythin else in the world....i hate it.!!!

Chao....Take care all...
love ya..!!!
BYyyeee...Keep Bloggin!!!!

Lost Friends..!!!

Heya all bloggers....

Ya long time no see...but hey couldn't find time...i know that's so lame to say....

so here i am sharing one more sad story of mine...So here i go..
Today my best friends came and had a talk with me..And they said i BROKE their "TRUST"...

Ok i agreed but that was not INTENTIONAL..??OR WaS it???i just have to say..it is not the way they think...its just they are thinking it right now what they want to...
n its ok..i agree with them....

they said they wont ever trust me again...if they've said their final decision then i am no one to say anything to them...
that's ok..with them...

But it sure hurts...n i am once again hurt like before...and it took like sooooo long to get fyn before also coz one of my bst frend left me...without ne reason..
n now they leave me for breaking their trust which i never intended to...

sooo..its ok...evrybody is happy let them be happy...
n wud lyk God to bless them all...

Its just i am hurt n sad...dats all i think i have to say..coz i just cant explain the feeling i am having rite now...
:-(

Take care bloggers....Love ya all...

byeee...!!!n Keep blogging!!!

ReaSonS..!!!

Just to say...Few of the reasons i love PARIS for...!!!

I hope u can see wht i see in these pics...!!!!...

These r taken frm flickr...so all credits to them...n i have them coz i love paris....

cmpletely in love with it!!!!

Wana be there to feel the nite's breeze...

Wana be there with him(i dunno who??)..!!

Hmmmmmmmm

i so wanna be there!!!

A Small PARISIAN alley....I Want a Place Here..!!

its so calm.....i love it!!!

Will Have Dinner here..Ah so romantic...

These r few things i totally love paris...just few.... of 'em!!!

i love u paris....je t' aime paris!!!

......WanTed To Be HeaRD..!!

Heya bloggers..!!

Hw r u all??
Ya almst all my titles seem "SAD"..ha ha ha ha ha.....ya mayb but its more of frustration....
Today i dunno for wht reason i am feelin sad..but...it makes me tired...last nite i woke up n cried like for an hour or so....n then felt better n went off to sleep...

Aint it funny...dat the moment ur cryin at dat tym u hve the most awful feelin...n wen ur done, there cmes a satisfyin feelin...n u feel a bit better n then go off to sleep.....
yaaaaaa....i wanna SCREAM OUT LOUD..!!!
Ok so mayb im done sayin all this...

Sooo.....i said this frend of mine whos a very gud "Frrreeeennnnddd.."
Dat pple write blogs coz sumtyms they also want to be heard...n dats exactly wht i want..!!!
"TO BE HEARD"
N no1 can believe he also started to write a blog....ha ha ha ha ha....n no1 can evr knw he writes it too...coz its just he also wants to be heard.....soooo hey i knw ur readin it...soooo keep bloggin...!!!

ok,so now my studies...goshhh!!!....i hate studyin but i do want to earn after my grad..!!!
But the problem lies is my kolg studies r hard...n want to read my book too...I do i Do i Do!!!
coz it seems great n i've just read it a lil..!!

So lets hope i get tym to study!!!BOTH MY KOLG N MY NOVEL..!!!

Hmmmmmm....So here's Me sigin off...!!!
Take care....N keep BLOGGIN!!!!

Fucked up lyk hell..!!!

Heya bloggers out there..!!!

Hw r u all..???Long tym han no see..!!!??? Huh....as if u missed me..???
So as the title says "I AM REALLY FUCKED UP"...Oh yeah...Gosh..
you knw..evry1 around u is just fake...n dat hurts..n wen u get to knw about the fake thing after a looonnnggg tym dat even sucks mre..!!!
So,my sad story....
i dnt knw who my frends r..???FREINDS i hate the word FRIEND...coz i havnt been able to judge pple around me..n dats so stupid to say rite??
n those pple just used me n are using me so that they can get the work they wanna get frm me.??
n nw i understand this shitty thing...n Now i hate it...N cribbed a lot for them(friends) but they say bye to me n move on..???IS IT FAIR????
They want their expectations to be fulfilled....but if by ne chance i expect a lil thing frm them they cnt do that...???IS THIS FAIR???
Some say im in bad company...???N the company im in they say others r wrng...???Gosh...
WHAT R FRIENDS...i dnt understand n frankly I DUN WANNA UNDERSTAND EITHER....
Cnt i expect a person to fite for me??
i mean this is hard for me to understand....i feel like a DESLYXIC!!!
LORD help me plz...I knw only u can help me with this.!!!
I wanna get outta this mess....plzzzzzz
i got so much to write but my vocabulary isnt allowin me ...no words left....
But in HURT...n pple Hurt me on purpose...

LovE..?!!!!???

Ya Dis is My love...Hmmm..learnin it is the best thing..Its been my dream to learn it for like 8years!!So ya now in 4th year cmpletin my graduation i get tym to learn n LIVE MY DREAM!!!..n hey Im LIVIN it n LOVIN it..!!!



So 'learning the guitar' part started on the first day itself with a lot of the 'banging the strings hard' and a little bit of 'making some sense with the sounds'.

Although I did learn how to tune it. And by the end of the day, even the 'exploring every possible way I can exploit it in' was over. So the next day started with experimentation.



Here is a list of all the conclusions made, in chronological order-

1. No, the plectrum can't handle 500 straight swooshes. Apparently, string no. 6 can.



2. The belt is NOT meant for whipping around unless you want to get hit square in the forehead.



3. Drumming a guitar makes no sense. So do it.



4. Playing cricket does sound exciting. But remember, however much the guitar may resemble a bat, it just doesn't have a good stroke.



5. Givson is stupid. So take out your permanent markers and make it sound English at least.



6. Never, NEVER IN YOUR WILDEST DREAMS, try tightening a string to colossal limits. And even if you do, don't even so much give banging it a thought. Not unless you want wood and pulleys flying everywhere.

So, thats all i cud thnk of writin....n i dunno whts with this blogger site...???Today its gvin hell lotta problem i dunno y??

MY mood...ummm Sad today..lolz...i dunno...newaz leave this aside..!!!

will talk bout it wen this stupid blogger site gets fyn..take care ppl..

keep postin n keep commenting!!!!

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

ya prob everybody wil say it n mayb nly few will say it with their heart!!!So HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY .....I LOVE INDIA n am PROUD TO BE INDIAN...

ya i havntdne nethin exceptional for my country,but the love for it in my heart is unexpressible...??is dat the rite word??

No truely...i love my country,ya i agree evn sumtyms i say this is wrng n dat is bad bout it...

But hey to be frank n clear..Evry person frm ne part of the world may say a thin or two bad for there own country but dat dsnt mean dey hate their country?rite..

Today got up at 6 in the morning to see the Hoistin of our Flag...n to tell u the truth its just an awsome feelin..!!Gosh..Love the Jan gan mann...

There this rush of adrenaline..n wen PM Manmohan singh spoke loved his speech.."...Ye hamara Vaada tha"(This was our promise) n then he said..."...Me ek aisa Bharat dekhna chahta hun"(i want to see India as) ...it was just too emotional for me...n nw the whole day patrotic songs cme n patrotic mvies n shows...I love em all..Prob none wud knw bout this coz i nver tell ne1...

But Hats off to India...U knw India nvr invaded ne country in her history..!!

India a plce of CULTURE...

India a place of MONUMENTS ..

India a place of TOGETHERNESS...

India..Love ya...

NATIONAL ANTHEM!!!

Jan gan mann adhinaayak jay hai, bhaarat bhagya vidhaata;

Panjaab, sindh, gujraat, maraatha draavid utkal banga;

vindya, himaachal, yamuna, ganga utchchhal jaldhi taranga;

tab shubh naame jaage, tab shubh aashish maage ;

gaahe sab jay gaatha;

jan gan mangal daayak jay he, bhaarat bhagya vidhaata;

Jaya he, jaya he, jaya he , jaya jaya jaya jaya he...

JUst to sum it up..there's this song i totally love n makes me cry wenever n wherever i hear it....so here u go...N i Dedicate this to ALL the INDIANS Livin outside India..!!i hope after readin this atleast once u'll Remember ur Country!!!

Ai mere pyaare vatan, ai mere bichhade chaman, tujhpe dil qurabaan ..

Tuu hi meri arazu, tu hi meri abaru tu hi meri jaan...

Tere daaman se jo aae un havaaon ko salaam , chuum lun main us zubaa ko jispe aae tera naam- Sabase pyari subah teri sabase rangin teri shaam tujh pe dil qurabaan...

Maa ka dil banake kabhi sine se lag jata hai tu aur kabhi nanhi si beti ban ke yaad aata hai tu..

Jitanaa yaad ata hai mujhako utanaa tadpata hai tu tujh pe dil qurabaan....

Chodh kar teri zamin ko dur aa pahunche hain ham, phir bhi hai ye hi tamana tere zarron ki qasam- ham jahaan paidaa hue us jagah pe hi nikale dam ..tujh pe dil qurabaan..!!!

JAI HIND....

EaT PrAy LovE..!!!!

Hey u bloggers out there...



Hws evry1 today???Hmmm....so...Dats the name of new book i'll start readin today..!!!Yiiiieeee...

Guests r here today so writin blog early...as wnt get time at nite..so nuthin much happnd in yester day n today...but ya had loads of fun with guests...coz wen evry1 gets together theycrack jokes n start talkin how this happnd n how dat happnd...
sumtyms u just love it!!!ha ha...
soooo...
i just added my playlist n nw its not workin..aarrrggghhhh....gosh its hard to do this..!!
I just love readin buks....lolz..so..whtz new we shud talk bout?
Ya i saw that mvie singh is king...must saw its gud..i dunno y the fuss was there???
theres nuthin bad bout singh's...even im a sikh..i didnt find even one scene offensive!!!
I just dunno y media creates such hype bout the things not imp.??!!
newaz mayb i just dun knw wht to write next so will catch ya all later....

Take care..~~~~Keep postin n Keep Commenting!!!

Worrrddsss FRm...The Mst AbseNt BloGGer.??

Soooooo....Im a person of few words....sometimes....

Act sme who knw me very well wud be laughing at it..

But seriously I often find it hard to find words sumtimes..???

My internal writer gives up even before i begin...ummm...i just cnt get things outta my head...newaz....

U knw sumtyms i forget wht exactly was i writin....???

Soooo.....Im havin this new CRUSH...onnnnn.....

Atif Aslam..!!! Yaaaa....Gosh LOVE HIS SONGS...n i got CRush on him after listin to song GULABI ANKHEIN JO TERI DEKHI(he payed a tribute to M.Rafi ji)

Im head over Heels For him!!!

I LOVE YOU ATIF!!!!lolz....

Ya he's after HUGH GRANT.....!!!!

HUGH GRANT IS ONE TOTAL PERSON!!!

Ok so now dats enuf....

n ya...i was the whole day busy findin how to add a playlist...n as u cn see i havnt succeeded as yet..!!!

See ya pple...n keep bloggin n keep commentin..!!!

Cares to alll..!!!

Heya Bloggers....So INDIA wins a GOLD MEDAL in Olympics..!!!So, ya it felt greeeeeaaattttttt....aftr all PROUD TO BE AN INDIAN....
Ya but A small thout cme to my mind while readin Mrngs newspaper,it said abhinav's dad presented him with a hotel..???n he got 2 cr's..do u fink he needs dat money..??i dunno...coz mayb that money cud be spent on trainin new players so dat mre pple who have passion n talent cn cme up..??
wht say..??? But hey i'll say dat im HAPPY bout the medal...
......ummmmmmmmm......
so hw r u all...???
So fm 16th Barclays league will start...sooo MANCHESTER UNITED ROX...being Champs for leagur n ufea ast year's..!!I want them to win this tym also...But hey Play For the Spirit of GAME.....I love manchester....
GLORY GLORY MAN UTD....n THE REDS GO MARCHIN ON!!!!!!!
ROCK ON..!!!

ThinKing...

heya bloggers.....

So...in news u hear evryday bout Global warmin...rite? But none has taken a step to prevent it...we pple say he shud start n he says she shud start...n the chain goes on...
N i heard the other news channel say in 2010 evrythin probably will finish.. :( now dats sad bcoz i wanna go to paris bfore i die..!!!

WTF.....Gosh...life is ok....Kolg will be soon startin...so im wishin it NEVER TO START...coz i just cnt take my life into dat hell...n cry all day long...
Evrybody sux!!!BIG TIME....

Im learning Guitar so livin my one dream!!!
gosh rite nw i gtg...bbyyee n cares...!!!

keep commentin n bloggin!!!

HuRt..??huh...

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own..!!